New Year, New Me (right?)

I am once again left on read, but maybe that's a good thing. I always say (or at least think) to myself that if this connection is really meant to be, then they'll always text back. This applies to any conversation: business opportunities, friendships, personal things. So, if they don't text me back, at least that negativity is out of my life.

Then again, I can never keep moving forward, because I'll forever be stuck on the what if.

But I'm trying harder this year. I'm choosing to take last year as a huge lesson, and hopefully that helps. That's part of the reason I developed the aforementioned rule. It's all a way for me to stick to plan. Like making this post today, I am sticking to my plan of productivity.

And that's one thing that will never change. I will always be obsessed with making sure everything goes according to plan. I need to ensure that nothing is out of place and that the map that my mind has created is reflected onto my life.

Which brings me to the topic of today: you can't change anyone else but yourself.

I struggle with this on a daily. Because of my obsession for everything to go according to plan, and the way I set make-believe rules for myself, I often get overwhelmed when others don't understand the labyrinth that is my mind. Which is entirely a me problem. Everyone else in this world is playing by their own make-believe rules, so I can never force them to play by mine; and I'll just have to live with that.

I can't change the fact that they aren't texting back, I can't change the fact that they are obnoxiously loud, I can't change the fact that they don't understand; but what I can change, is my approach to them.

So to answer the question in my title: yes, this year will reveal a new me, because this year is a change, and a change for the better. Happy new year everyone

-XO, Eleanor